im not doing well. day 4 of fevers. nothing my doctors can do about it because it's viral. i can't take ibuprofen because it interacts with chemo or can dangerously thin my blood or something like that. other nsaids are garbage and we all know it. so i haven't been sleeping. i'm alone most of the day. it's very difficult to get food or hydration. i'm really weak. i hate this. i'm only a third of the way through my taxol treatment. i feel miserable and already people think because i completed one (1) page over a 2 month period that means i'm "better" and so i should be hounded for "owed" art even though i've said 30000000000000000000000x that i'm Not doing a backlog of art during the period of chemo and if you feel like i'm going to "owe" you for contributing to patreon for this time you should Just Cancel Your Subscription.
i feel like being dead from cancer would be easier, but that's probably the four day untreatable fever talking. at least i didnt have chemo-poison-infused night sweats last night so i dont have to struggle to change all the sheets on the bed right now. fml. i don't know when i'll have another page. at this point i'll probably wind up in the ICU before i get another produced.
cancer sucks. don't get cancer.