hey folk, told myself i'd do an update so here i am.
bad news first - the situation with my dad is that he's been diagnosed with colon cancer. we don't know the stage yet, but he's got surgery on the 18th and chemotherapy will follow once he's healed. this isn't something i ever wanted my father to experience, it isn't something i want anyone to experience except maybe the true worst of the worst on earth. he's frightened and anxious, the future is uncertain and scary, and there is nothing to be done except for me to tell him i trod this path before and survived and so i will keep encouraging him to do the same. but he's also 29 years my senior and i'm not exactly youthful anymore myself. so it's a lot, it's weighing on me significantly.
less downer news:
ive uploaded my ANE photos to both a kofi gallery and furtrack.
i'm finally cured of what i had for the last several months and whatever it weakened me to allowing in. can't tell what microorganism tried to take me out, but tested neg for: covid, strept throat, MRSA and mono. but you can get a sense of symptoms from those suspects.
for the first time in MANY years, i was able to participate in Hourly Comics Day on feb 8th. compiled those into a pdf for anyone who missed them coming out live.
i also tore apart and reconstructed my art studio room, which took about five hours and destroyed my back. i really want to build myself a wall-attached desk, but that's not likely to happen in the middle of winter. i like to use the deck out back to cut wood and it's currently under about three feet of packed snow. little hard to set up sawhorses.
i did repair my magnetic inclining drawing table, which after about ten years keeps losing bolts and screws. well everything is nice and stable once more. if only i could get the cats to stop insisting i put a bed there, i could uh. work on it again lmfao
i also keep eyeing organizers on aliexpress, since i bought and built one and its replaced two mugs full of pens. but i dont have the money to sink into that right now. unless...?
the sticker club mail for feb has officially gone out, and the print club will be not far behind. i just need to pick up some more valentines first. of course i'm sending everyone a valentine too, what's the point of having addresses if i dont use them for good??
it looks like patreon has FINALLY unblocked postybirb, meaning maybe 2026 will be the year i dust it off and try to make it work for me again. it's fallen so, so far from what it once was and that's entirely from greed in the higher ups. they wanted to be pro llm very early and very early everyone on the platform very loudly was like NO FUCKING WAY. their interface for the back end is as ever slow and buggy. but at least it lets me post to it without having to go out of my way to use their website (or god forbid their app) now.
i watched the new silent hill movie return to silent hill and lemme tell ya, it's terrible. i mean it's just bad on its own as a stand alone horror film, a very weak and poor cgi infused linear jacob's ladder (which if you know silent hill, jacob's ladder was an original inspo anyway, so we're full circle now) but when you place RtSH next to SH2, the game it's trying to create a film version of, it gets even worse lmfao. it's hard to explain to folks who havent played the game, but the protag is a very unreliable narrator who has no sense of his own responsibility and let selfishness lead him to horror. RtSH takes this same protag and very loudly says "HE NEVER DID ANYTHING WRONG, EVER" which cracks me up because its like who wrote this??? did the protag himself write this??? a movie about james sunderland by james sunderland??
if you DO know the game meta, you might be wondering exactly how the FUCK they did that. well it's really easy. just throw mary under the bus. voila. YEP THEY DID THAT.
all this was driving me delightedly up a wall in that 'cant look away from this trainwreck' way, and THEN i got my hands on a version that WASNT a camrip. and o h my god, yall. oh my god. it was somehow worse when i could see everything clearly. the cgi was worse. the monster makeup was worse. james has a beard that looks like it came straight from spirit halloween for a scene that desperately tries to evoke drama and ethos but just comes off laughable. but most of all, most stunningly of all.... the fog is poorly rendered.
THE FOG IS POORLY RENDERED.
THEY HAD THAT SHIT FIGURED OUT IN PLAYSTATION ONE lmfao and this movie BUNGLES it. the cgi fog stutters and loops its animations, and just looks utterly awful. now if you're maybe focusing your attention exclusively on the cast you might not notice, but when there's numerous panning shots of (cgi) foggy forests and (cgi) foggy streets, with a tiny figure in the center frame, you're GOING to notice it. also james is cast with an incredibly wooden actor and he never puts his hand down a toilet.
lots of peering through cracks tho. i fucking felt like pyramus and thisbe were gonna come out and the wall was about to explain its character to me.
... i've also been watching the 1990s uncut version of hamlet a lot. listen,
so now we reach the downer sandwich part of this again, where i tell you sad things and give you an option to make a difference in them. mostly.
first of all, streamer Crescentfox has passed away very suddenly from brain cancer. his family is raising money for final expenses. they are almost at their goal and any help is appreciated.
secondly, cecil & ryan are struggling as ryan was laid off in the latest AI rush in tech. they and their family of 4 are not sure where their next meal (or pets meals) are coming from. if you can support them, their various cash reception handles are:
$rdewalt / pp&venmo @ ryan-dewalt-2 / ko-fi.com/1024x768
and the zeyada family in gaza are still living in a war zone where "ceasefire" means "bombs still fall" because israel is just as monsterous as the USA.
https://www.gofundme.com/f/wnq38-help-bilal-and-his-family?lang=en_US&ts=1757528828
and if youre in the united states please contact your senator and urge them to reject the SAVE act, which is a blatent voter suppression act which will disenfrance specifically women voters (or anyone who changed their name) and require you to bring a birth certificate and/or passport any time you want to cast a ballot. fucking jim crow laws all over again!!! so yeah, get in their ears about rejecting that: https://www.senate.gov/senators/senators-contact.htm
oh yeah and if you buy domains? stop using namecheap, they're complicit in hiding the genocide of gaza and palestine. i personally use joker these days for handling my domain name registration and renewalls.
and,,, i'm also struggling. but i find it harder and harder to openly ask for any help at all when things grow dire for people around me. but i was sick for about three weeks, and lost out on a not insignificant sum of cash from livestreaming as a result. so... any help is good help.
paypal or cash app or ko-fi or venmo all work. recurring pledges are best done via comradery, kofi and (last and least) patreon.
and as a final note - i'm aware that discord is trying to roll out AI skimming of all chats to moderate as well as facial recognition for age verification. i've never been that big of a fan of discord to begin with since it had no support for rotating your phone to type, but as folks exist in the discord chat and would like to keep it together, i'm researching other platforms to move it too. i am NOT moving it to telegram (nazi adjacent) or matrix (impossible to start/maintain). stoat.chat looks promising but appears to have shut registration for now (at least for gmail and non-standard emails) and there's also programs folks haev suggested like snikket, Fluxer and movim (tho movim isnt launched yet). i'm sure there's also no shortage of unknown chat apps rushing to launch right now as well, but that's not a terrible list to start with. and there is still steam, and if it becomes really necessary IRC is always an option. just give it a lil time to see where everyone settles. the corporations like to make you forget there are other options. they like to make you put all your eggs in one basket. fuck em, go out and find other apps. that's always been the way of the web. an app or forum or chat takes a shit and you all get your friends and move to the next one.
okay thats probably more than enough writing for now. later
oh yeah. ps. i turned 44 on january 28th. old man far outstrips the lifespan he expected to have, film at 11.
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bad news first - the situation with my dad is that he's been diagnosed with colon cancer. we don't know the stage yet, but he's got surgery on the 18th and chemotherapy will follow once he's healed. this isn't something i ever wanted my father to experience, it isn't something i want anyone to experience except maybe the true worst of the worst on earth. he's frightened and anxious, the future is uncertain and scary, and there is nothing to be done except for me to tell him i trod this path before and survived and so i will keep encouraging him to do the same. but he's also 29 years my senior and i'm not exactly youthful anymore myself. so it's a lot, it's weighing on me significantly.
less downer news:
ive uploaded my ANE photos to both a kofi gallery and furtrack.
i'm finally cured of what i had for the last several months and whatever it weakened me to allowing in. can't tell what microorganism tried to take me out, but tested neg for: covid, strept throat, MRSA and mono. but you can get a sense of symptoms from those suspects.
for the first time in MANY years, i was able to participate in Hourly Comics Day on feb 8th. compiled those into a pdf for anyone who missed them coming out live.
i also tore apart and reconstructed my art studio room, which took about five hours and destroyed my back. i really want to build myself a wall-attached desk, but that's not likely to happen in the middle of winter. i like to use the deck out back to cut wood and it's currently under about three feet of packed snow. little hard to set up sawhorses.
i did repair my magnetic inclining drawing table, which after about ten years keeps losing bolts and screws. well everything is nice and stable once more. if only i could get the cats to stop insisting i put a bed there, i could uh. work on it again lmfao
i also keep eyeing organizers on aliexpress, since i bought and built one and its replaced two mugs full of pens. but i dont have the money to sink into that right now. unless...?
the sticker club mail for feb has officially gone out, and the print club will be not far behind. i just need to pick up some more valentines first. of course i'm sending everyone a valentine too, what's the point of having addresses if i dont use them for good??
it looks like patreon has FINALLY unblocked postybirb, meaning maybe 2026 will be the year i dust it off and try to make it work for me again. it's fallen so, so far from what it once was and that's entirely from greed in the higher ups. they wanted to be pro llm very early and very early everyone on the platform very loudly was like NO FUCKING WAY. their interface for the back end is as ever slow and buggy. but at least it lets me post to it without having to go out of my way to use their website (or god forbid their app) now.
i watched the new silent hill movie return to silent hill and lemme tell ya, it's terrible. i mean it's just bad on its own as a stand alone horror film, a very weak and poor cgi infused linear jacob's ladder (which if you know silent hill, jacob's ladder was an original inspo anyway, so we're full circle now) but when you place RtSH next to SH2, the game it's trying to create a film version of, it gets even worse lmfao. it's hard to explain to folks who havent played the game, but the protag is a very unreliable narrator who has no sense of his own responsibility and let selfishness lead him to horror. RtSH takes this same protag and very loudly says "HE NEVER DID ANYTHING WRONG, EVER" which cracks me up because its like who wrote this??? did the protag himself write this??? a movie about james sunderland by james sunderland??
if you DO know the game meta, you might be wondering exactly how the FUCK they did that. well it's really easy. just throw mary under the bus. voila. YEP THEY DID THAT.
all this was driving me delightedly up a wall in that 'cant look away from this trainwreck' way, and THEN i got my hands on a version that WASNT a camrip. and o h my god, yall. oh my god. it was somehow worse when i could see everything clearly. the cgi was worse. the monster makeup was worse. james has a beard that looks like it came straight from spirit halloween for a scene that desperately tries to evoke drama and ethos but just comes off laughable. but most of all, most stunningly of all.... the fog is poorly rendered.
THE FOG IS POORLY RENDERED.
THEY HAD THAT SHIT FIGURED OUT IN PLAYSTATION ONE lmfao and this movie BUNGLES it. the cgi fog stutters and loops its animations, and just looks utterly awful. now if you're maybe focusing your attention exclusively on the cast you might not notice, but when there's numerous panning shots of (cgi) foggy forests and (cgi) foggy streets, with a tiny figure in the center frame, you're GOING to notice it. also james is cast with an incredibly wooden actor and he never puts his hand down a toilet.
lots of peering through cracks tho. i fucking felt like pyramus and thisbe were gonna come out and the wall was about to explain its character to me.
... i've also been watching the 1990s uncut version of hamlet a lot. listen,
so now we reach the downer sandwich part of this again, where i tell you sad things and give you an option to make a difference in them. mostly.
first of all, streamer Crescentfox has passed away very suddenly from brain cancer. his family is raising money for final expenses. they are almost at their goal and any help is appreciated.
secondly, cecil & ryan are struggling as ryan was laid off in the latest AI rush in tech. they and their family of 4 are not sure where their next meal (or pets meals) are coming from. if you can support them, their various cash reception handles are:
$rdewalt / pp&venmo @ ryan-dewalt-2 / ko-fi.com/1024x768
and the zeyada family in gaza are still living in a war zone where "ceasefire" means "bombs still fall" because israel is just as monsterous as the USA.
https://www.gofundme.com/f/wnq38-help-bilal-and-his-family?lang=en_US&ts=1757528828
and if youre in the united states please contact your senator and urge them to reject the SAVE act, which is a blatent voter suppression act which will disenfrance specifically women voters (or anyone who changed their name) and require you to bring a birth certificate and/or passport any time you want to cast a ballot. fucking jim crow laws all over again!!! so yeah, get in their ears about rejecting that: https://www.senate.gov/senators/senators-contact.htm
oh yeah and if you buy domains? stop using namecheap, they're complicit in hiding the genocide of gaza and palestine. i personally use joker these days for handling my domain name registration and renewalls.
and,,, i'm also struggling. but i find it harder and harder to openly ask for any help at all when things grow dire for people around me. but i was sick for about three weeks, and lost out on a not insignificant sum of cash from livestreaming as a result. so... any help is good help.
paypal or cash app or ko-fi or venmo all work. recurring pledges are best done via comradery, kofi and (last and least) patreon.
and as a final note - i'm aware that discord is trying to roll out AI skimming of all chats to moderate as well as facial recognition for age verification. i've never been that big of a fan of discord to begin with since it had no support for rotating your phone to type, but as folks exist in the discord chat and would like to keep it together, i'm researching other platforms to move it too. i am NOT moving it to telegram (nazi adjacent) or matrix (impossible to start/maintain). stoat.chat looks promising but appears to have shut registration for now (at least for gmail and non-standard emails) and there's also programs folks haev suggested like snikket, Fluxer and movim (tho movim isnt launched yet). i'm sure there's also no shortage of unknown chat apps rushing to launch right now as well, but that's not a terrible list to start with. and there is still steam, and if it becomes really necessary IRC is always an option. just give it a lil time to see where everyone settles. the corporations like to make you forget there are other options. they like to make you put all your eggs in one basket. fuck em, go out and find other apps. that's always been the way of the web. an app or forum or chat takes a shit and you all get your friends and move to the next one.
okay thats probably more than enough writing for now. later
oh yeah. ps. i turned 44 on january 28th. old man far outstrips the lifespan he expected to have, film at 11.
